Getting a jump on the Jews this year in financial atonement. (Yom Kippur is October 3-4 in 2014.)

I am cleaning my portfolio. I've lost a lot because I didn't manage trailing stops nor pay attention. Made two trailing stops for dog stocks, looked at Coach (

COH) and Hewlett-Packard (HPQ). I've read that COH and HPQ are in turnaround, but COH is maybe a quarter above its top target price. HPQ on the other hand is going up and has better fundamentals and less negative sentiment (looking at short ratios, price to free cash flow ratio, price to sales ratio). Cleaning out the portfolio is like using a dustpan and brush for scraping away dead flies and spider webs, or severing a relationship once promising and now lingering with the patina of hope.

This morning, typing out recipes from the Daniel Plan Cookbook. It has beautifully photographed meals: all these red, green, fresh and crunchy ingredients on white dishes. After a break, typing out recipes from Wheat Belly. I am afraid to use a scale, much in the same way I am afraid to look at a portfolio, or glance at any measurement or yardstick that may tell me I'm doing something wrong or that I am not good enough. Besides, if my muffintop is so large I can't fit into my current clothing size I know I'm doing something wrong, and if I can fit into a certain pair of khaki shorts without triangulating my body on the bed (knees to shoulders the hypotenuse) to zip up I am doing something right. If I can stand up from a seat without feeling my weight sink into my knees I am doing something right. And I will feel I have done something right when my thighs no longer touch. What I've done right so far: taken digestive enzymes before eating pasta or whey; reduced my meat intake by at least a third, replacing it with vegetables; reducing my intake of salty, lovely Lay's Potato Chips and replacing them with handcut sweet potatoes, personally seasoned, not using the homemade mayo-sour cream dip (so tasty though!).

Awhile ago I took out a terrific, hot book from the library, Lost for Words by Edward St. Aubyn if you want to know. I misplaced it while on a family jaunt downtown. I asked about at two places I believe I may have left it at. I feel wretched. I have to suck up the book's replacement cost. I'd like to get to the point where I don't feel like a maggoty piece of feces when I make a mistake. I know I'm not atoning properly: do the Jews feel purified, renewed, invigorated after a good atonement? What are the internal signs of a successful atonement?

I muffed GnuCash. I gotta RTFM.

On the plus side, I have cleared the credit card balance, and am 73 dollars closer to paying off my home equity line of credit.